Coming of Age (Final Draft)

     Even if i think about it now, I can already say that I wasn't the type of person to say "Hi" when I see a familiar face, nor am i the type of person to be sitting with a large group of people and having very large conversations. I am none of theses things. I am always that person who would be sitting in the corner of the room with little to nobody to talk to just like a wall flower. Although im not always lonely,  I am also not the one to be bragging of how popular I am (not that i wanted to be).

     Already having a bad summer, I had the first day of high school to look forward to. hearing about how freshmen's are considered as "freshmeat" did not help with my anxiety at all. It also didn't help with the fact that I am going to a high school that was out of my district, meaning that i would be alone with nobody to talk to which now I understand how hard it is to be a new student at a new school. "was this going to be a good way to start off the first year of high school?" I asked myself. well, one could only hope. After a brief pep talk from my dad, I took a deep breath and got ready for what was lying ahead of me that day
     The first step i took off my dads car, anxiety has already taken over my body. It was as if i was just one person in this large arena of high school students. The worst part about it was that people had their own groups of friends so it felt as if I was going to be the loner in the corner yet again. I didn't let that bother me though. I was just going to get through the day with no problems go home and repeat the process. Although, i found out that that wasn't going to be the case which is actually going to be a good thing.
     After the first day half way passed and I decided that maybe this time i wont need to be that loner in the corner that nobody talks to. It also wouldn't need to be necessary that i would be someone popular in this jungle they call high school but, i could probably change myself and be a bit more social so that i wont have to be a loner for 4 years. So i took the initiative and made that one of my main goals and to my surprise, it worked out better than i thought it would. I started by talking to some of my MeneMAC freshmen classmate that way it wouldn't be awkward when I work with them in the future. Then I decided to make small steps such a sitting with them during lunch or listening to there problems. now i feel as if i have a close relationship with them.
     I did not regret one bit of how I decided to change because change could be a good thing. From being the loner and having nobody to talk to, I can now say that I have friends in high school that I can count on so that i wouldn't need to go through high school alone. If i didn't take that initiative on the first day of school then I don't know how I would be able to survive high school. I can't say that I have changed into a popular person that everybody knows but i can say that i did change a lot since the first day of school.