Coming of Age (rough draft)

     Even if I think about it now, I already can say that i wasn't the most social person. I am not the type of person to say "hi" when i see a familiar face, nor am i the type of person to be sitting with a large group of people and having very loud conversations. I am none of theses things. I am always that person who would be sitting in the corner of the room with little to nobody to talk to. Although im not always lonely,  I am also not the one to be bragging of how popular I am (not that i wanted to be).
     Already having a bad summer, I had the first day of high school to look forward to. hearing about how freshmen's are considered as "freshmeat" did not help with my anxiety at all. it also didn't help with the fact that i am going to a high school that was out of my district, meaning that i would be alone with nobody to talk to which now i understand how hard it is to be a new student at a new school. "was this going to be a good way to start off the first year of high school?" I asked myself. well, one could only hope. After a brief pep talk from my dad, I took a deep breath and got ready for what was lying ahead of me that day
     The first step i took off my dads car, anxiety has already taken over my body. It was as if i was just one person in this large arena of high school students. The worst part about it was that people had their own groups of friends so it felt as if I was going to be the loner in the corner yet again. I didn't let that bother me though. I was just going to get through the day with no problems go home and repeat the process. Although, i found out that that wasn't going to be the case which is actually going to be a good thing.
     A few days passed and i come to think that maybe this time i wont need to be that loner in the corner that nobody talks to. It also wouldn't need to be necessary that i would be someone popular in this jungle they call high school but, i could probably change myself and be a bit more social so that i do have people i could talk to for 4 years. So i took the initiative and made that one of my main goals and to my surprise, it worked out better than i thought it would. I did not regret one bit of how i decided to change because change could be a good thing
     Looking back to the first day of school, i came to realize how much i changed. Although i have only   plan to change this small issue of mines that has brought me down for the majority of my life, i found out that taking a small step's to something that you want to happen can be more effective then you think. At first i thought that change usually a bad thing and that is why i tried to avoid it, I now think that if you change for the better it will all be worth it in the end